Everything Makes Nothing Exist.

music to my ears

stress in my heart. or brain. or both
I’m not stressed because i know people back-stab me. and that some people don’t like me. i back-stab some people. and i don’t like some people. who gives a fuck? i don’t care what you think if i don’t care about you.

don’t under estimate me for I am awesome.
you will be exterminated if you try say that to my face bitch.
sh sh shak-k-k-king.
breathe. sorry I’m angry ily (L)

why dont ya say so?

-R.M.

so i havent blog in a while, like way over a week actually and tones of things have happend lately. so this is just about the fall out boy concert that i went to on the 23 febuary which was like ages ago.

so me and my friends found out about a fall out boy secret show through myspace. i have tones of pics of all this and ill put them somewhere…

any way we were; well i was; searching for the information and waiting for it to be realeased for ages and like refreshing my page and shizz. then finally last sunday [22 feb.] i was on myspace and they posted a bulletine and i was ZOMFg and called my bffl up straight away that i went to the concert with and we were like “lets go to real groovy right now and wait out side for 16/15 hours. and i was like shit i cant handle that. so we were like we’ll just go 5 hours before the doors open. and we did and cos there were three of us [davina, joanna, and i] we were 6,7 and 8 in line. it was supre awesome and the show itself was amazing! i talked to the band. i know ive already made a post about this but i have no fucking idea what that said. so this is more convienient for me.

and i found out JOE TROHMAN replied to me on twitter! super cool!

“trohman@PurpleLollipops Either I’m updating too much or not enough. No way to satisfy anyone these days. Maybe I’ll strive to un-satisfy everyone.” it was epic cos he was the only one i didnt actually get to talk to at the concert. so it totally made up for that. i feel like i have a musical connection with fall out boy. i wouldnt say personal cos that would sound stalkerish and they prolly dont remember me much. but i hope they know that just by simple talking to a fan, or replying to them on twitter wont just make their day, week, month or year but their whole life. living is so much better because i know i actually went out there somewhere into the world and things happend. and it makes me realise that things happen. you just have to do stuff. THINGS HAPPEN! i love life

-R.M.

i licked my bestfriends hair today in math.
some people happend to see me do so.

gosh i am a freak!

but it made me want to vomit so bad.
it was so so very disgusting.
today was also 1 April.
APRIL FOOLS totally sucked.
this guy i hate in my class who happens to be super lame tried to pull a small “prank” on everyone. he had his hand wraped up and it looked really clamy and yuck so everyone believed that he had cut it or soemthing. and when people asked he said he cut it open by touching the blade of a lawn mower while it was on. the only reason people even believed him is coz we all thought he would be stupid enough to do something like that so really he shouldnt have been flatterd that people did believe him. he should be ashamed/embarressed that everyone thinks he’s that much of an idiot to do something like that. especially when he’s in the second highest class. what a noob!!!
thats kinda funny cos he’s in my german class and today we learnt how to say “weird” “idiot” and “freak” in german. and the teacher said we’d be extending our english vocab. im pretty sure we already know those words?

ahh i hate boys well the stupid fugly ones anyway… theres this asian guy in the class above me who has a MASSIVE head. its so weird. like its really really weird. and he is SUCH a pervert. he’s so yuck. and he’s such a bitch. cos i got moved down and he’s all like “you wont get moved back up” even though i totally will. i hope.

-R.M.

so in less than 5 minutes im abandoning technology for one hour.

its for earth hour which has an advert on myspace thats been popping up when i got to log in.
it starts at 8:30pm and goes on for 60 minutes with hopefully no electricity except TV. my mum cant turn it of cos the rugby’s on.

and while im hear ild like to say how funny the Australian VMAS where last night. my friend came over and watched it with me. oh pete’s a character!

any way i have to go save the cheerleader. save the world.
ciao

-R.M.

you never would have thought i would say that eh?

i dont blog much D: needa do it more on things like this!

Russia is re-arming. nuclear weapons and such. a possible nuclear war could break out!
oh but wait.
that doesnt get on the news,
cos hot cross buns have gone up in price since last year!
oh no. stop the god damned fuckking world. hot cross buns price has increased.
tears come to my eyes because i love them so.

i dont ACTAULLY care.
we’re in a ressesion what do you EXPECT?

nuclear war is nothing major?

-R.M.

i cant believe i havent actually already made a post relating to this subject.
thats just wizzard!

anywhore, over two weeks ago; man that was ages ago; i went to the fall out boy concert.

ill post soon with more info but here’s 2 pics from (mon 23 feb)   

so i get on the bus today after walking through a really big crowd of a bunch of people; that are taller than me, and stronger, perhaps smarter; and i see my best friend get on the bus right before me and she’s with this really clingy girl in her class and they’re like friends and stuff. i dont think much of it and im not jelous or nothin’, but she’s weird and annoying and has really really big eyes which is kinda creeeeeeepy.

anywho, i get on the bus and im looking for my friend, the 4 seaters are taken up so im guessing she prolly saved me a seat. but the clingy chick stole my seat. even though my friend said it was for me. and so im sitting on the bus alone from 3:15-3:45 and im thinking during this time what the fuck. why did she steal my seat. oh but wait it gets so much worse. my phone was going flat and i keep on forgetting the put music on my mp3 cos i accidently deleted all the music off it. so im sitting there for half a bloody hour with no music and im shit bored and i look over and google eye and she has her bloody mp3 blasted up to full and everyone can hear her rather crap music and it sounds so shit. and i see my best friend staring out the window as i just was when i was thinking all the angry things about how it wasnt fare i was sitting alone, and my best friend practically was. anyway i whisper my friends name to get her attention to tell her to come and sit next to me cos google eye is listening to music. and im whispering her name and google eye just stares at me. she gives me this look. and im thinking how shit scary she looks cos her eyes are so fucking big and her head is so small. and man i was like what the fuck is she staring at is a giant purple beatle eating my face or something. well there wasnt and i talked to my friend and tried to ignore google eye. it was very creepy. but i came across this really neat letter box when we stoped at the lights and thought it was so cool, i should take a picture…

sometimes i feel like a social ghost.
like in my Materials class.
sitting alone in silence.

but it has gotten better.
ive broken the ice with ashlee and jessi sits near and joins in sometimes,
although jessi can be a bit of a hassel at times.

i feel on edge.
its hard to describe because i dont feel like this often.
and its not a good feeling either which makes it worse.
i almost want to vomit but at the same time totally dont.
its nothing phyical, although my mental state makes me shake and.. bite my hand.

i was just argueing with some people and losing.
it hurt real bad. especially when they call me a liar and im telling the truth. no one should ever feel like that but so many people do. too many. too often.

but i listend to some music. and it cleansed me well.
i do my breathing exercises that calm me down. and i try resolve the problems life faces me with.
i try my best to milk ever oportunity i have. and no longer have regrets.

and at the end of the day i end up pondering this:
how epic a candy floss machine would be to have.
how i want to be mumified when i die.
if you scratch and itch, or itch a scratch. or if it doesnt matter either way.
how i even have friends. and how grateful i am to have them.

skittles suck

-R.M.

Manchester united top of the table.

i am not jumping with joy.
at all.

beating liverpool by 5 points.